My Sacrifice

We are forbidden

            I am forbidden

But my heart will not be shackled

                        It will not be bound

                                 You hold it in your hands

Soothe my spirit.

Others have intruded

            They were always there

                        As prayers

                                    Voices

In the calm

            Of sleepiness

                        With my eyes wide open

                                    I fell into you

                                                Us

I knew the ground was there

            Inevitable as thunder

                                                I leapt

Knowing

            That I couldn’t stay afloat

You were there.

                          You have such strong hands.

You taught me to love.

            Nurture me, my sweet gardener

                        Until blossom after blossom

                                    Opens and unfolds

Revealing secret places

            Just for you

                        Alone

You treasure and accept

            Me

                        As I am

                                    Without judgment

I love you more than frogs.

I didn’t hide us

            Didn’t want to hide us

From the foreseeable

I ignored it

Thought I’d wished it away

Believed that loving you

Made it disappear

That God would bless us

With joy

There is no future

            There is no hope

Is there really no hope?

Your voice is nectar

I drink in each syllable

What do you say?

How your day was

            What your dreams are

                 That you love me

                       I am reborn with each phrase.

Cradle me

Make me smaller than memory

Take me back to the beginning of us

When possibilities could not be bound

Gentle my soul.

The truth is as simple as this;

            Losing you

                        Will be the death of me.

But there is another truth

One I do not easily face

                        I will not die.

Even if I wish it

                                                I will not die.

I will go on

                        Somehow

Even as I continue

Loving you

                        

Past all hope.