Long Before Bells

Ravings and rampaging and screaming and tears

Arguing and maligning and silences and bells

All part of the swell of the throb in my brain

All part of the pain

All part of the pain

You want me to share.

You want me to tell.

You want me to trust,

Without fear

Without fear

But oh my kind dear

I just don't know how.

I just don't know how.

I'm so full of ringing doubts

That cling

Like a spot

Like a spot

Like a spot

That can't be scoured out

Of the whitest white sheet

Where hell and I meet

And have met long before.

You want me to share.

You want me to tell.

You want me to trust.

Without fear

Without fear

But oh my sweet dear

I just don't know how.

I just don't know how

So I leave and I bow

My head and my heart

So sure that you're tired of my hell and my fear

Yet oh my good dear,

I could love you so well,

If not for my fear,

If not for my hell,

If not for my doubts,

And my stained pure white sheet

Where hell and I meet

And have met long before.

Long before bells and long before tears

Long before living in this atmosphere

Long before I began to beg and implore

And long before spots

That can't be scoured out

Of the purest white sheet

Where hell and I meet

And I have met long before.